I Wish

 

I wish I could get you out of my mind
Out of my heart out of my soul
Walk away from wanting to tell you
Away from wanting you to know

I wish I could just tell you
How I felt, why, and for how long
Letting go of holding on so tight
Letting go of wondering if it’s wrong

I wish I could just open myself up
Let you see right inside of me
Without fear of any judgment
But instead smiling confidently

I wish I could just tell you
I think you are where I’m supposed to be
Knowing it is possible you might
Feel the very same way about me

I wish I didn’t feel so connected to you
Through the distance so much of the time
That I could turn and walk away
Leaving these torturous thoughts behind

I wish I did not feel like I was
Committing the original friend sin
But could instead freely admit to you
Exactly where my thoughts have been

I wish I could understand why
If we were not supposed to be together
I had to meet you in the first place
Since now I want nothing less than forever

I wish I didn’t feel so uncomfortable
Admitting how I really feel
Maybe it is because I know
That my love could not be more real.